To Binibini Or Not To Binibini - Part Two
I didn’t get the title. Even though I was only the 2nd runner-up. I felt good. I felt so proud of myself. At that time, I couldn’t believe that I had reached that far!
Looking back at joining Miss Teen, I realized that back then I made decisions on my own.
I joined Miss Teen Subic because I wanted to.
Someone had disapproved of me joining and I quit but after a week I was back. Why? Because I wanted to be there. Because I wanted to be a part of that competition. Even though it felt like I was just playing around, at the back of mind I was being competitive! I wanted to win but I also wanted to have the time of my life.
Now we come to the present time.
“Megan join na.” “Megs, magbinibini ka na kasi.” “Ang tanda mo na, sumali ka na!” These are only a few statements that I have been hearing over and over for the past couple of months. And I’m not complaining! I am so flattered. I have always wanted to but something had always been pushing me back - I didn’t have the drive.
When I was in Miss Teen, I was pressured to do anything. I did the whole pageant because I wanted to. Heck, I joined Starstruck because I wanted to! I had the drive in BOTH situations. I want to have that drive if ever I am to join Binibining Pilipinas.
Dapat andun ako dahil gusto ko, hindi dahil pinilit ako. Gusto ko kapag nandun ako, handa na ako. 100%. Physically, mentally, emotionally. Hindi pwede sakin yung 50% lang tapos habang nandun ako, saka ko aayusin ang mga dapat ayusin.
So my answer is that, no, I will not be joining BBP12 this year but I am keeping my heart open to it.
Thank you to everyone that has been tweeting me and sending me links to forums. I’ve read everything you’ve sent. I’m so glad you all believe in me. But let me believe in myself first so that I won’t let you down. ;)
